I used to blame myself for lacking discipline, for having the willpower and the strength of an overcooked fettuccine.
But I was wrong.
The problem wasn't weak will-power, poor discipline, or lousy character.
The problem was that I tried to do it all by myself.
As a child of an emotionally turbulent family, I’ve had painful experiences where my emotional needs weren’t met.
To avoid disappointment, I withdrew from sharing my needs with others. Why ask for it when no one will be there for you anyway?
I prided myself for not needing anyone, for being "independent."
In truth, I was just pretending to be strong, building fortresses, wearing armor to shield my skin from disappointment and hurt.
I wanted to prove to myself and to others that I could do it all. As if it could somehow compensate for the worthlessness I felt deep within.
It was tiring. It was lonely. And it simply doesn't work because it goes against nature.
Look at nature, and you'll see. Nothing exists "independently". Everything in nature dances together in an intricate ecosystem.
I, too, am interdependent on others to thrive.
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💛 Excerpt from my blog "Who Do You Want on Your Success Team?"
👉 Read full article here: https://milenanguyen.com/blog/2020/2/27/who-do-you-want-on-your-success-team
