關於 tell me tell me baby why can't you leave me ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

恐龍吊飾黏不上去乾脆畫上去，女兒說的。
4月節目歌單【好事自在Latte】

04/30星期五
14:04:04笑一個/浩角翔起
14:07:47Cha Cha Cha/Humo feat Josef
14:11:12失戀陣線聯盟/草蜢
14:15:40傷得起/蔡黃汝
14:19:46有故事的人/周華健
14:24:16Next To You/Chris Brown
14:33:15狠狠愛/徐若瑄
14:36:59Pop Star/平井堅
14:41:51我愛你/李榮浩
14:50:09Sabotage/Bebe Rexha
14:53:23千年之戀/信樂團/戴愛玲

15:04:04愛情甜甜/孫淑媚
15:08:01中意他/梁詠琪
15:10:47夢話/NU'EST
15:16:24Gone/Nsync 超級男孩
15:20:59囉哩叭唆/Ella 陳嘉樺
15:24:23嗨嗨人生/MC HotDog/張震嶽
15:32:11換日線/張智成
15:36:45White Dress/Lana Del Rey
15:42:21匆忙人生/楊丞琳
15:49:29一千個晚安/方炯鑌
15:54:43地球藍調/踢館高手

16:04:04領悟/辛曉琪
16:08:51Love Love Love/James Blunt
16:12:18愛情萬歲/五月天
16:20:28哎呀! AIYA!/Karencici
16:22:44This Is What You Came For Me/Calvin Harris
16:26:22辦不到/張靚穎/大嘴巴
16:34:18柴米油鹽醬醋茶/王力宏
16:38:04幸福這件小事情/孔藝弦
16:42:53WHY DON'T WE/Rain/請夏
16:48:32謝謝 夏之戀/KARA
16:52:12Honey/郭書瑤
16:55:2999次我愛他/元若藍

04/29星期四
14:05:00Lotto/EXO
14:08:06Money On My mind/Sam Smith
14:11:15奇妙的幸運/麻吉弟弟/劉軒蓁
14:16:44無人知曉的浪漫/潘裕文
14:20:44果然還是妳/嵐-二宮和也
14:25:36快樂是自找的/趙之璧
14:35:30寶貝壞壞/Matzka
14:40:17Skinny Love/BIRDY
14:43:28或是一首歌/田馥甄
14:52:00Oh My God/Alec Benjamin
14:55:53揚眉/楊千樺

15:04:06我愛過/江蕙
15:08:49遺失的靈魂/陳勢安
15:12:37Microphone/98 Degrees
15:18:43通勤打理/呂士軒
15:21:55老子說/吳克群
15:25:05French Kiss/泫雅
15:33:06Overnight/SIRUP
15:38:05回憶的閣樓/郭靜
15:42:47行星/理想混蛋
15:50:33I Won't Let You Down/Ok Go
15:55:19快要喜歡你/溫嵐

16:04:04愛似狂潮/蘇永康
16:08:08黑暗的盡頭/Crispy脆樂團
16:12:49Hold Up/Bii畢書盡
16:18:07Down/Fifth Harmony
16:20:48愛無赦/蔡依林
16:24:35Tonight Tonight/柯有倫
16:32:41散場的擁抱/倪安東
16:37:35電影/詹森淮
16:43:02Carlito Marron/Carlinhos Brown
16:50:14只要我開心/劉思涵/戴佩妮
16:54:22U + Ur Hand /P!nk

04/28星期三
14:04:54Fast car/安室奈美惠
14:08:10夏天的浪花/張惠妹
14:12:12看上她/黎明
14:17:51你愛我嗎/范逸臣
14:22:09下雨了/李洪基
14:27:16你要不要先回家/吳映潔
14:34:51Thunder/Imagine Dragons
14:37:44舞曲大帝國/影子計劃
14:42:02一個人生活/林凡
14:49:19有一點動心/張信哲/任素汐
14:54:14Sorry/Madonna

15:04:09好笑神/董事長/Lulu黃路梓茵
15:07:48Eyes Like Yours/Shakira夏奇拉
15:11:38音樂超氣派/庾澄慶/蕭敬騰
15:17:15你說/Faye 飛
15:21:41夜太黑/林憶蓮
15:26:16彼得潘/EXO
15:35:41Starstruck/Years & Years
15:39:03來個蹦蹦/玖壹壹/Ella 陳嘉樺
15:43:20而我知道/五月天
15:51:25二人遊/方大同
15:55:26Papa & Mama/家入里歐

16:03:58大雨/金智娟
16:08:56太陽/邱振哲
16:13:08孩童之歌/CNBLUE
16:19:11Money Money/鐵竹堂
16:21:58絕/莫文蔚
16:25:38Poster Girl/Zara Larsson
16:33:36哭過的天空/蘇慧倫
16:38:36即使離別/平井堅
16:46:07水哥/李英宏/蛋堡
16:52:21vip/Ke$ha
16:55:44麥克瘋了/好好先生/魏如萱

04/27星期二
14:04:03億萬克拉的幸福/黃文星
14:07:29More Than A Woman /911
14:12:31雨水一盒/陳綺貞
14:17:14爛天氣/光良
14:21:03Blurred Lines/Robin Thicke
14:29:55聽我的/韋禮安
14:33:44What You Want/Evanescence
14:38:27你為什麼說謊/丁噹
14:46:56Sabotage/Bebe Rexha
14:49:49我知道/By2
14:54:44回到過去/周杰倫

15:04:05查某囡仔/李千那
15:08:53不要說話/陳奕迅
15:13:30They Don't Know/Ariana Grande
15:18:43日期/戴佩妮
15:21:42腿之歌/ Lulu黃路梓茵
15:24:51Locolotion/Orange Range
15:33:17water color/輝人
15:36:26消極掰/蔡依林
15:40:32浪費/徐佳瑩
15:47:59遺失的靈魂/陳勢安
15:52:55I Gotta Feeling/The Black Eyed Peas

16:04:04為愛落淚/張清芳
16:09:05無人知曉的浪漫/潘裕文
16:13:04Remember The Name/Ed Sheeran
16:18:39Hands on Me/少女時代-太妍
16:22:14BAD/Karencici
16:25:53雙人枕頭/花兒樂隊
16:33:50白白的/張韶涵
16:38:03你能不哭了嗎/持修
16:41:58光/嵐
16:50:47I Will Never Let You Down/Rita Ora
16:54:09妳是我的花朵/伍佰

04/26星期一
14:04:10我們來拍張照/棉花糖
14:08:07你願不願意/曹格
14:11:35I Do /Colbie Caillat
14:16:48美麗的插曲/蕭亞軒
14:20:52DA RA DA/MAMAMOO/Jeff
14:24:44小醋瓶/田亞霍
14:33:24她沒在看我/瘦子E.SO
14:36:19ATTENTION/Charlie Puth
14:40:51旋轉門/謝沛恩
14:47:51又愛又笑又開心又流淚/Dreams Come True
14:53:14天真有邪/林宥嘉

15:04:11暝那會這呢長/許富凱
15:08:27有一點動心/張信哲/任素汐
15:12:17Bubble Pop!/泫雅
15:19:22My Girls/Christina Aguilera
15:22:25Super Model/S.H.E
15:25:59萬分之一/陳立農
15:33:43我們的主場/鼓鼓/蕭秉治
15:37:57Endless Love/Mariah Carey
15:42:13寂寞沙洲冷/周傳雄
15:49:03白雪/KOKIA
15:54:25新世界/告五人/阿爆

16:03:58每一次想你/李玟
16:08:10為愛而戰/阿杜
16:11:57Cooler than me/Mike Posner
16:17:28懶/阿達/陳大天
16:21:16Talk/Two Door Cinema
16:25:34愛的初體驗/張震嶽
16:33:36我是幸福的/梁靜茹
16:39:00More Days with You/SUPER JUNIOR
16:44:12人間煙火/田馥甄
16:50:39反正我好看/五堅情
16:53:36Blow Me/P!nk

0423星期五
14:04:40淋雨一直走/張韶涵
14:07:58Happily 開心在一起/One Direction
14:10:51Chillaxing/安心亞
14:16:25時間等過誰/吳克群
14:20:02好想你/徐若瑄
14:24:05If You Do/GOT7
14:31:59三秒笑/江靜
14:35:49Stuck/Stacie Orrico
14:40:38我好想你/蘇打綠
14:48:36未來預想圖II /德永英明
14:55:20開水與白麵包/莫文蔚

15:04:30好不好/五月天
15:08:40ok on your own/mxmtoon/Carly
15:12:06烏克麗麗/周杰倫
15:17:27黑框眼鏡/曾沛慈
15:21:18怦然心動/AOA
15:24:28Everybody/張國榮
15:33:02我很好騙/動力火車
15:38:03一念之間/戴佩妮
15:43:10How Far I'll Go/Alessia Cara
15:48:17平日快樂/孫燕姿
15:53:00Summer rain/可苦可樂

16:03:57天涯/任賢齊
16:09:13Calling/B'z
16:14:56我沒錯/吳汶芳
16:21:02以後別做朋友/周興哲
16:25:09Coffee/圭賢
16:28:46i will be fine/魏如萱
16:37:05低電量/呂士軒
16:40:34Nobody's Perfect/Miley Cyrus
16:45:00倔強愛情的勝利/陳綺貞
16:52:13夜晚/吳卓源
16:56:07S.O.S./Jonas Brothers

04/22星期四
14:03:56Come With Me/Ricky Martin
14:07:22電話皇后/蔡依林
14:10:22我很好騙/動力火車
14:17:36一整夜/艾怡良
14:21:42浪費時間/9m88
14:25:49東京小丑/Ohashi Trio
14:35:38Trouble/Coldplay
14:40:51時間梯/萬芳
14:48:50刻在我心底的名字/盧廣仲
14:55:06Like!/APINK

15:04:11寫一首歌，寫你我爾爾/蕭煌奇/茄子蛋
15:08:54給你看/佛跳牆
15:12:37MONSTER/MONKEY MAJIK
15:18:50被擋住的路/臉紅的思春期
15:22:57不說出的溫柔/范逸臣
15:32:26STARLINE/大原櫻子
15:38:13不會愛就別愛/鼓鼓
15:40:58More More More/蕭亞軒
15:48:14Thinking Out Loud/Ed Sheeran
15:53:57拜託你聰明點/關詩敏

16:03:58無情的雨無情的你/齊秦
16:07:57請離開我/艾薇Ivy
16:12:16I Knew You Were Trouble/Taylor Swift
16:18:06藍天/圖騰
16:21:07太驕傲/楊乃文
16:25:03Wake Up And Smell The Coffee/The Cranberries
16:33:07被遺忘的/楊宗緯
16:37:29IF ONLY.../OZI
16:41:32COME BACK HOME/2NE1
16:49:21先這樣/宇宙人
16:53:40Where's the party/Madonna

0421星期三
42:05:00 PM現場直播/潘瑋柏
2:08:23 PMCan't Get You Out Of M Head/Kylie Minogue
2:12:21 PM真情人/李玟
2:18:33 PM好不容易/方大同
2:23:00 PMBleeding Love/Leona Lewis
2:27:18 PMDo Do Do/Karencici
2:34:44 PM乖乖壞女孩/梁文音
2:38:24 PMTalk Love/K.Will
2:42:33 PM你/Bii畢書盡
2:50:04 PM摩托車/兄弟本色
2:54:12 PMHello Me/大塚 愛

3:04:05 PM愛情限時批/伍佰/萬芳
3:07:43 PMOye Como Va/Santana
3:11:56 PM轉吧!七彩霓虹燈/夾子電動大樂隊
3:19:39 PM想要膩在一起/曾昱嘉
3:24:04 PM我的人/朴寶劍
3:27:49 PMLALA/龔芝怡/伍家輝
3:36:16 PMParty Up/DMX
3:41:51 PM風和日麗/劉若英
3:49:46 PM無名花/鄭心慈
3:54:46 PM心情High翻天/mihimaru GT

4:04:04 PM原來你什麼都不要/張惠妹
4:08:45 PM千年以後/陳零九
4:13:23 PMWe Take Care of Our Own/Bruce Springste
4:19:43 PMMr.Mr./少女時代
4:23:31 PMTwinkle Star/PER6IX
4:26:50 PM穿越時空愛上你/自由發揮
4:35:54 PMI Can't Tell You Why/Brownstone
4:39:44 PM妳在我的愛情裡/杜德偉
4:44:39 PM低頭戰/安心亞/未柏緯
4:50:10 PMCloser/Travis
4:53:59 PM80年代/1976

04/20星期二
14:04:17雨劈哩啪啦下/宮閣
14:07:54OMG/Usher/Will.i.am
14:12:20JioJioMe/黃明志
14:17:36寂寞在唱歌/阿桑
14:21:54因為愛所以恨/潘裕文
14:26:09Twenty-three/IU
14:33:57OMG What's Happening/Ava Max
14:38:01執子之手/品冠
14:47:322020再出發/麋先生Mixer/任賢齊
14:52:41I Don't Want To Think About You/小柳由紀/Boyz II Man

15:04:11寫一首歌，寫你我爾爾/蕭煌奇/茄子蛋
15:08:55燕尾蝶/梁靜茹
15:12:53Misery/Maroon 5
15:19:00CHANGE/瘦子E.SO
15:21:38Bloom/Troye Sivan
15:25:11永遠都不夠/鄭秀文
15:34:29When This Rain Stops/WENDY
15:38:23新不了情/蕭敬騰
15:43:47無神論/黃立行
15:49:25Wonderful Day/宇宙人/白安
15:54:54五顏六色/柚子

16:03:58短髮/梁詠琪
16:08:29有一種愛叫等待/邱鋒澤
16:12:24遠行/Do As Infinity 大無限樂團
16:19:50New Rules/Dua Lipa
16:23:16CHECKMATE/鄭容和/林俊傑
16:25:43Mr.Q/蔡依林
16:33:44背叛/曹格
16:38:56有一種悲傷/A-Lin
16:43:51Fearless 無懼的愛/Taylor Swift
16:50:34一加一大於二/關韶文/焦凡凡
16:54:01Yes I Do/Waterman

04/19星期一
14:04:53對面的男孩看過來/李心潔/錦鏽
14:08:00鄉間小路，香肩小露/宇宙人
14:11:47想繞遠路回家/乃木板46
14:18:31想見你想見你想見你/八三夭
14:22:29海嘯/庾澄慶
14:27:05Starry Eyed/Ellie Goulding
14:34:39郵票/KIMBERLEY 陳芳語
14:38:29Slide/Calvin Harris
14:42:53走路去紐約/陶晶瑩
14:50:03Shake It Up!/SUPER JUNIOR
14:53:57星期六的晚上/PIA吳蓓雅

15:04:05我愛雨夜花/S.H.E
15:08:06小小的你/陶吉吉
15:11:28Teeth/5 Seconds Of Summer
15:19:17Paco Medley/木村kaela/繃帶樂團
15:21:54肝功能衰竭/旺福
15:25:33Green Window/AKMU 樂童音樂家
15:33:21半生出走/胡彥斌
15:38:16氧氣/范曉萱
15:43:48So What那又怎樣/P!nk
15:49:41雨中的讚美詩/光良
15:54:40Can't Fight The Moonligh/LeAnn Rimes

16:04:04 Lemon Tree/蘇慧倫
16:07:08所以說,我們/N.Flying
16:10:39轉圈圈/Crispy脆樂團
16:17:07It's like that/Mariah Carey
16:20:28FEEL/婁峻碩
16:24:06大特醉/呂士軒
16:31:37祝我幸福/楊乃文
16:35:54喜歡寂寞/蘇打綠
16:41:20Get Over/Dream
16:51:11My Dilemma/Selena Gomez
16:54:13Get Out/MP 魔幻力量

04/16星期五
2:03:57 PMA CA ELLA/Ella 陳嘉樺
2:06:47 PMmy kind of girl/Michael Buble
2:10:49 PM1234567/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
2:16:35 PM如果沒有你/曾昱嘉
2:20:31 PM別去問他好嗎/郭靜
2:24:33 PMGive It To Me/2PM
2:32:36 PMBody/Megan Thee Stallion
2:35:16 PM我的時代/MC HotDog/張震嶽
2:39:33 PM秋日地鐵/張清芳
2:47:45 PM我們都不完美/生命樹
2:53:27 PM單戀熱線/大塚 愛

3:04:35 PM今晚我要唱歌/江蕙/任賢齊
3:08:06 PM海邊種種/Puffy 帕妃
3:14:17 PM別問很可怕/J.Sheon
3:18:05 PM美麗的 我不碰就是了/關詩敏
3:20:56 PMCloser/The Chainsmoker
3:29:35 PM愛情失敗者/劉學甫
3:33:15 PM不管有多苦/那英
3:38:41 PM10 Seconds/AOA
3:45:04 PMSweet Child O' Mine/Guns N' Roses
3:52:05 PMCan I Be Your Baby/山東

4:03:58 PM散了吧/林志炫
4:08:23 PM我們都是有歌的人/ 江美琪
4:12:43 PMIn The Morning/Jennifer Lopez
4:17:53 PM 對愛入座/蔡佩軒/屁孩
4:20:51 PM帥哥/大囍門
4:24:21 PM she knows love/indigo
4:31:35 PM牽手/蘇芮
4:35:58 PMHome, my home/手島葵
4:41:06 PM能不能/李友廷/林孟辰
4:49:15 PM腳趾都發燙/蔡阿嘎
4:52:59 PMYou Better Know/Red Velvet

04/15星期四
14:04:41我要為你做飯/阿妹妹
14:08:42You're So Fly/BTOB
14:12:06飛起來/徐懷鈺
14:17:45當時的月亮/王菲
14:21:26自戀的自虐/柯泯薰
14:26:28Take Me Somewhere Nice/Sky Sailing
14:33:55Fat Boy Gang/大淵
14:36:44Empire State Of Mind/Jay-Z/Alicia
14:41:55兩難/戴佩妮
14:48:47怎麼說我不愛你/蕭敬騰
14:53:56紅蓮華/LiSA

15:04:12 I wanna be your girl/曹雅雯
15:07:29哦 我的鬼神大人/3rd Coast
15:10:51一定是他/黃小琥
15:17:33We R Who We R/Ke$ha
15:20:57來追我男友吧/安心亞
15:24:30Party All Night/N2O
15:33:13他和我的書架/AiNA THE END
15:38:48勇氣/光良
15:42:57不愛自己的人/蔡佩軒
15:49:15狂熱/蘇打綠
15:53:45drivers license/Olivia Rodrigo

16:03:57一場遊戲一場夢/王傑
16:08:06你聽聽就好/李芷婷
16:13:14Beautiful People/Ed Sheeran
16:18:48Get Over You/Sophie Ellis
16:21:57夏天的浪花/張惠妹
16:25:58KISS THE SKY/Jason Derulo
16:34:15微光/曹楊
16:38:23相見太晚/趙詠華
16:44:47Be My Love/酷懶之味
16:52:00球鞋蜈蚣/葛仲珊
16:54:36I'm Ready/Sam Smith

04/14星期三
14:04:03童話傻瓜/伍家輝
14:07:16慢慢來/孫燕姿
14:10:44Get Your Shine On/Jesse McCartney
14:16:07習慣不習慣/理想混蛋 雞丁
14:20:59讓每個人都心碎/張惠妹
14:25:47Fantastic/Henry 劉憲華
14:33:56No Love沒有愛/Eminem
14:40:02你說/Faye 飛
14:47:14特別的人/方大同
14:52:38淚月/柴崎幸

15:04:04保庇/王彩樺
15:07:43House Party/SUPER JUNIOR
15:11:42有愛直說/KIMBERLEY 陳芳語
15:17:36餘地/于文文
15:21:47傘下/張宇
15:26:18Because we can/Bon Jovi
15:35:33deja vu/Olivia Rodrigo
15:40:12抱著你/張震嶽
15:46:42Ring! Ring! Ring!/Dreams Come True
15:52:13受夠/周興哲

16:04:05限時專送ABC/草蜢
16:08:39I should be so lucky/mihimaru
16:13:07我們來拍張照/棉花糖
16:19:10讓我送你花一朵/萬芳
16:22:40Off My Face/Justin Bieber
16:25:11巨人的肩膀/林宥嘉
16:33:44Beautiful Now/Zedd
16:37:18愛無所畏/呂薔
16:41:58當你離開的時候/蔡健雅
16:48:30Let's Go Crazy/CNBLUE
16:52:24想要得不到/Tizzy Bac

04/13星期二
14:03:59一天/YELLOW黃宣
14:08:04Title/Meghan Trainor
14:10:56金斯頓的夢想/B.A.D
14:16:58My Destiny/LYn
14:20:44一光年/5566
14:25:21小世界/Erika 劉艾立
14:33:25Run The World/Beyonce
14:37:19Fat Boy Gang/大淵
14:41:15說你愛我/潘瑋柏
14:47:29Do you remember/moumoon
14:53:25情人/Beyond

15:04:12蘭姨/黃妃
15:08:34廣島之戀/莫文蔚/張洪量
15:13:42A song for you/Whitney HoustonI
15:19:48Messed Up/文慧如/邱鋒澤
15:23:20Wake Up Call/Maroon 5
15:26:31箇中強手/ 羅志祥
15:34:34Antisocial/pH-1
15:38:06輸情歌/J.Sheon
15:42:51浮躁/王菲
15:47:40新幹線/小旺福
15:50:25Special Summer Sale/Orange Range
15:54:30真面目/蘇慧倫

16:03:57不走/杜德偉
16:08:49All I Got/伯賢
16:12:45假扮的天使/徐若瑄
16:19:22CRANK THAT/SOULJA BOY
16:23:03假高潮/Spark/Karencici
16:25:56美人計/蔡依林
16:33:53好好/暉倪
16:38:07路邊攤/古巨基
16:43:325x20/嵐
16:52:07Everybody Bounce/高爾宣
16:54:41With Love/Hilary Duff

04/12星期一
14:04:04魅惑天空/中島美嘉
14:08:19我超越/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
14:11:44海芋戀/蕭敬騰
14:17:35最後一封情書/許哲珮/莫子儀
14:21:53情書/范逸臣
14:25:36Things We Lost/Bastille
14:33:42GIRL GONE WILD/Madonna
14:37:04Run Away/原子邦妮
14:41:46EVERYTHING/王力宏
14:49:04小小的等待/B1A4-振永/俞勝恩
14:53:47愛就愛吧/許茹芸

15:04:04祝福/許富凱
15:08:11絕美/艾薇Ivy
15:12:15One Step Too Far/Dido
15:19:25Me Gusta/SHAKIRA/Anuel AA
15:22:32讓你媽媽扭一下/庾澄慶
15:26:30公公偏頭痛/周杰倫
15:32:45老人癡愛/黃明志
15:36:56你把我灌醉/黃大煒
15:43:07COME BACK HOME/2NE1
15:48:57而我{眼已垂落}/這位太太

16:04:05孤星淚/劉德華
16:09:34暫別我的愛/Ailee
16:13:46樹洞的聲音/徐佳瑩
16:20:02速食愛情/W0LF四堅情
16:23:28Kiss Me More/Doja Cat/SZA
16:31:03是不是這樣的夜晚你才會這樣想起我/張智成
16:35:10離開後/白安
16:41:12Prelude/Mr.Children
16:50:30空空/楊丞琳
16:54:35Without You/Avicii/Sandro

4/09星期五
2:04:42心跳/弦子
2:08:01 WHY DON'T WE/Rain/請夏
2:10:57有沒有妹/黃鴻升
2:16:56純真/五月天
2:21:04大風吹/曾沛慈
2:25:19 Remember The Name/Ed Sheeran
2:33:32摩登少年/1976
2:41:05 Breathe Again/Toni Braxton
2:48:15念念又不忘/李榮浩
2:54:50 You Can't Hurry Love/Diana Ross

3:04:04情字這條路/鳳飛飛
3:07:26兒歌/魏如萱
3:10:28 By(e) My Melody/平井堅
3:18:25 Friends/Anne-Marie/Marsmello
3:21:44沒在怕的/小春Kenzy
3:24:46舉起來/黃立成/麻吉
3:32:46餘額/孫燕姿
3:36:07抱緊我/BTS 防彈少年團
3:41:40愛極限/許慧欣
3:48:06起飛了/NAT 健豪
3:53:18 The Animal Song/Savage Garden

4:04:04蔓延/許美靜
4:08:50到時再分手就好/ROY KIM
4:12:51 Goodbye My Friend/小男孩樂團
4:19:12我愛台妹/MC HotDog
4:23:07 Fat Boy Gang/大淵/Fat Boy Gang
4:25:56 Jenny From The Block/Jennifer Lopez
4:33:39煙火的季節/F4
4:38:40 I.O.U/Carry 'N' Ron I.O.U 1992
4:42:51波霸奶茶/陳瑾緗/熊仔
4:50:39寫一首歌，寫你我爾爾/蕭煌奇/茄子蛋
4:55:22 I'll Be There for You/Meghan Trainor

04/08星期四
2:05:01一個便當/盧廣仲
2:08:23 腳踏車/庾澄慶
2:12:11 Dancing Queen/Meryl Streep
2:18:25如何忘記你/張若凡
2:23:10想你/金范秀
2:27:05周星星/吳克群
2:35:07 Slow Clap/Gwen Stefani
2:37:35甩個POSE/林育群/陳嘉唯
2:41:43你還要我怎樣/薛之謙
2:49:36 曖/孫盛希/OZI
2:53:50 I For You/Luna Sea

3:04:04沙漠小巴/浩子/蔡家蓁
3:07:22 Smooth/Santana/Rob Thomas
3:12:05當愛情來了/王心凌
3:19:18你給我聽好/陳奕迅
3:23:50其實我一直想對你說/莫文蔚
3:28:14 CROOKED/G-DRAGON
3:37:14人生在世/Hakubi
3:42:24鴉片玫瑰/陳昇
3:51:12 I Found You/Benny Blanco/CaIvin Harris
3:55:27透明/鄧紫棋

4:04:05你給我的愛最多/張學友
4:09:10愛的詩篇/梁文音
4:13:00我心躍動/可苦可樂
4:20:08 OSO/慢慢說樂團/Limi/婁峻碩
4:23:21獨一無二/羅志祥
4:27:05 Bionic/Christina Aguilera
4:34:54一起去巴黎/侯湘婷
4:43:25 Leave The Door Open/Silk Sonic
4:50:41朋友你現在好否/蕭煌奇
4:55:15好朋友/張娜拉

04/07星期三
14:04:09壞女孩/Ella 陳嘉樺
14:07:32飯隨愛人/邱鋒澤
14:10:36Be My Baby/倖田來未
14:19:43在不在/張信哲
14:23:59Slow Down/Selena Gomez
14:31:54倔強/家家
14:33:39Girls Like You/Maroon 5
14:38:40誰說/黃小琥
14:47:29旅．課/A-Lin
14:52:34最初的起點/陳綺貞
14:55:12佔據你的心/燦多

15:04:12浪子回頭/茄子蛋
15:08:04Watermelon Sugar/Harry Styles
15:10:55說愛你/蔡依林
15:17:11深呼吸/春艷/李權哲
15:20:10Whistle/Flo Rida
15:23:53ELVA IS BACK/蕭亞軒
15:32:5610 percent/KAYTRANADA
15:37:10親愛的你怎麼不在我身邊/江美琪
15:41:20寂寞邊界/張棟樑
15:49:53Just Right/GOT7/VIXX
15:54:12Baby Cakes/壞特

16:03:57佔領年輕/ASOS
16:07:45十分鐘的戀愛/展榮/展瑞
16:11:06I SHOULD HAVE KISSED YOU/One Direction
16:17:10你就像個小孩/阿杜
16:21:37也可以/閻奕格
16:26:01WANNA BE MYSELF/MAMAMOO
16:34:08Black or White/Michael Jackson
16:40:12微光/梁靜茹
16:49:02倔強的孤單/蕭煌奇
16:53:16亡命之徒/縱貫線

04/06星期二
14:04:43時間快轉/戴佩妮
14:09:09寫給巧克力的歌/南拳媽媽
14:12:33Sweet Holiday/CNBLUE
14:17:49假男友/蔡旻佑
14:22:07我的80年代/雷光夏
14:26:30Set Fire To The Rain/Adele
14:34:54壞蛋特調/J.Sheon
14:38:47SexyBack/Justin Timberlack
14:43:20聊天室/蘇運瑩/岑寧兒/艾怡良
14:51:13超快感/孫燕姿
14:55:33B Who I Want 2 B/安室奈美惠

15:04:55上美麗的情歌/Lulu黃路梓茵
15:09:39Nobody Knows/Boyzone
15:13:45陽光宅男/周杰倫
15:19:49Blinding Lights/The Weeknd
15:23:05很不低調/方大同
15:27:21結果咧/大嘴巴
15:37:09DO or NOT/PENTAGON
15:41:21想你了/光良
15:45:33永遠的福氣/陳慧琳
15:50:15大發現/東京事變
15:55:58Be Alright/高爾宣

16:04:05走在大街的女子/林憶蓮
16:07:46Leave The Door Open/Silk Sonic
16:11:22Never Let You Go/李建軒
16:17:21He wasn't/Avril Lavigne
16:20:09SKYWALKER/怕胖團
16:28:37一直是晴天/許茹芸
16:33:16直到抵達你的星球/Super Junior-圭賢
16:38:51正在塞/呂士軒
16:45:40送予你的歌/蕭煌奇
16:50:56ME & U/鄧福如
16:54:10One Love/BLUE

04/05星期一
2:03:57愛的動名片/安心亞
2:07:29 Luv Me/AOA
2:10:55媽媽說/周渝民
2:16:36聽見下雨的聲音/魏如昀
2:21:06小時候的我們/周興哲
2:24:36 Get Together/Lenka
2:32:04 Get The Party Started/P!nk
2:36:01少在那邊/葉瑋庭/賴聖恩
2:39:44先得方/鼓鼓/萬芳
2:47:53永遠在身邊/大嘴巴
2:52:58 Super Delicate/Hey! Say! JUMP

3:04:12 啞巴情歌/黃乙玲
3:08:21獨處的時候/蘇打綠
3:12:41 A Sky Full Of Stars/Coldplay
3:21:17 BAD LADY/楊丞琳
3:24:47 Gangnam Style/Psy
3:28:26 And No Matches/Scooter
3:37:13我不需要每一個人都愛我/八三夭
3:41:31 Back To December/Taylor Swift
3:48:58 This Is The Last Time/Keane
3:52:18我的左耳/舒米恩
3:55:27皇后區的皇后/葛仲珊

4:03:57捨不得把眼睛睜開/費玉清
4:07:58一個人生活/林凡
4:12:13愛在銀河茶房/10CM
4:17:29問號/黃右年/屁孩
4:21:00 Umbrella/Rihanna/Jay-Z
4:30:35倖存者/林俊傑
4:35:01邂逅/安全地帶
4:38:02娃娃國/Sonic Deadhorse
4:45:45舞台/蕭煌奇/潘麗麗
4:51:10 New Rules/Dua Lipa
4:54:37 猴籠/蕭敬騰

04/02星期五
2:04:04戀人殺/陳零九/愷樂
2:07:37 HWAA/(G)I-DLE
2:10:51大風吹/許慧欣
2:17:01慢靈魂/盧廣仲
2:21:42 You Could Be Happy/Snow Patrol
2:24:29噗嚨共之歌/浩角翔起
2:31:45一無所知/陳立農/徐佳瑩
2:35:46好心分手/盧巧音/王力宏
2:39:08 Pump It /The Black Eyed Peas
2:49:03愛洗蝦米/旺福
2:53:33 I'm a Lady/Meghan Trainor
2:56:44 I LOVE YOU,JOHN/陳珊妮

3:04:04放阮一個人/許富凱
3:07:44你會想念我嗎/蘇慧倫
3:11:55 Still The One/One Direction
3:17:49 FUTURE IN YOUR EYES/周湯豪
3:21:29 Perfect Illusion/Lady Gaga
3:24:26甜秘密/蔡依林
3:33:03再見王子/棉花糖
3:37:46我愛上你/張學友
3:41:17只憑接吻/菅田將暉/AimyonL
3:48:21 BOOMBAYAH/BLACKPINK
3:52:20很大的世界/魏妙如/吳健豪
3:55:52 最高品質靜悄悄/9m88/leo王

4:04:05 紅塵來去一場夢/巫啟賢
4:08:29 You Are/于文文
4:13:09 Be With You/Atomic Kitten
4:19:29停不下來/Spark/韓睿
4:22:23 Trumpet Lights/Chris Brown
4:31:17愛人動物/蘇打綠
4:35:06還是要幸福/田馥甄
4:40:07 Killer Tune/東京事變
4:47:32 I have a Dream/Connie Talbot
4:51:59現在就出發/品冠
4:55:44愛的叮咚/徐懷鈺

04/01星期四
2:04:40 Not In Love/Enrique Iglesia
2:07:57狂野之城/郭富城
2:11:01大師講/蕭亞軒
2:16:21夢見/許仁杰
2:20:35 I'LL REMEMBER/Wanna One
2:24:03在這裡請你隨意/蘇運瑩
2:32:33 Kings & Queens/Ava Max/Lauv
2:35:24今天星期幾/莫文蔚
2:39:30麻雀/李榮浩
2:46:45一朵花/Matzka
2:52:06忍者棒棒/卡莉怪妞

3:04:04愛情你比我想的閣較偉大/茄子蛋
3:07:44 Happy Together/Simple Plan
3:10:12會咬人的狗/Tizzy Bac
3:18:00不愛了/徐若瑄
3:22:10曾諾的永遠/B.T.O.D
3:26:13 Forever Medley/Take That
3:36:29你與我的歌/THE CHARM PARK
3:41:08不怕慶祝/徐佳瑩
3:48:37風和日麗/自然捲
3:53:44 Brand New/Pharrell William

4:04:04心太軟/任賢齊
4:09:47 I'm in love/田亞霍
4:12:58 Echo/少女時代
4:19:02沒有很會唱/小宇-宋念宇
4:22:50 This Is What You Came For me/Calvin Harris
4:30:56 I Believe I Can Fly/R. Kelly
4:35:32沒有錯/家家
4:40:26 Beautiful Woman/安溥
4:49:29非愛不可/平井堅
4:53:07雙人體操/陳珊妮
#歌單 #DJ荳子

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Masa awal aku kahwin dengan isteri aku, aku dapat pakej 4 orang anak. Alhamdulillah. Yang mana 2 daripada 4 ni istimewa sikit. Dua-dua aspergers. Sorang ADD sorang lagi ADHD. Paling mencabar sekali tau tak apa? Anak-anak ni sebelum kehadiran aku, diorang ni di manjakan betul. Cukup manja! Semua nak, dapat. Tak boleh kena tegur, mesti menaangis dan membentak. 3 lelaki, sorang perempuan. Masa tu umur yang sulung 14 tahun. Yang second 12 tahun...
Continue ReadingDON ' T ALLOW MOTHER TO BORN HER MASTER

When I married my wife, I got a package of 4 children. Thank God. Which 2 of the 4 is a little special. Both aspergers. Another ADD another ADHD. It's most challenging to know it's okay? These kids before my presence, they are being pampered right. Pretty spoiled! All want, got it. Can't be told, must cry and snap. 3 men, a woman. At that time the eldest was 14 years old. The second 12 years old. Third 9 years old. Fourth of 6 years old girl.

First time entering the family, I've had a meeting done. With gangster style, long hair braids. I'm doing a LIVE FB meeting with children. In the meeting, I just entered the family, so follow my rules. I don't follow their rules.

At the beginning, many people who are nearest have started tripping and spreading stories, not saying that I will hit the kids. The swing bowl is right who reads people from this person's use.

Remember the early marriage, my wife always reminds me of me. If these kids promise anything they need to be fulfilled, they will cry badly and scream. Hard to persuade. Sometimes I want to break my breath and cry. The other one is ADHD if he cries, he can't be angry, he has to say it carefully. Because later he will be raging and coming hyper. The one who added is his own attitude. It's just his problem that he doesn't take the port. The eldest is the most pamper. Ask for whatever the confirmation gets. After that it's urgent to work.

I really don't feel like I'm suitable at all. What should I do? Wash his mother first. My wife cried when she washed her first. I said it's simple. I don't want my son to grow up to die and get everything he wants to wear. Nothing, tomorrow won't be given, he rebel like going crazy.

Everything that my wife says can't do, I prove it to my wife, everything that she thinks is wrong. I made it. I didn't see anyone doing what my wife said. I just tried to bring MCD, then I parked at the Tomyam shop. Look at all the faces that are slammed. But no one is crying.

That's where it all started. Until one part I saw my wife still wrongly. I said it's simple.

′′ Want something big, need a big sacrifice. If you maintain like this, it's too wrong that you have to follow all your child's wishes, you're afraid to say NO and then you're crying and tired of your brother Trust me. Just like this, you'll lose your brother. Choose. ′′ ′′

Hah my wife was shaking at that time.

Yes, it's not easy to fight the mother's instinct. I really understand. But have to remember, you want to be sad until when you just want to entertain the extreme motherhood instincts? How do you want your child to grow up? What's he doing today, he's already big tomorrow. You're poor, he asks for something you can't fulfill. You think he got it? That's the wrong time he just said this sentence.

′′ Why is my mom not like someone else's mom. It's okay. I am not important ′′

Heart was shaking at that time. He didn't tell me 100 times, once didn't let him release such a painful sentence?

I'm nothing, kids like this even more men, have to grow up to be men. Not a bapok, not a Kpop. Man. The world will come far more evil. Responsibility is far bigger. It is compulsory to grow up to be a man. I repeat.

MEN.

That's when my wife slowly became a mad mother. Kah kah kah. The kids were shocked at that time. Suddenly mom is good at screaming? Suddenly mom is good at tunjal head? Suddenly mom is good at slapping? Suddenly mom dares to throw her phone against the wall?

Most power if a child I say near her mother,

′′ Mom doesn't love me, I hate mom.."

If my wife used to hear this verse, she will feel sinful and crying. Now you know what my wife answer?

′′ Once you hate me, 100 times I hate you.."

Stunned again child. Feels like the tactical of playing sentiment is not going to be. Continue to continue doing homework.

After that the scene of running away from the middle of the night, haa my wife is already cuak. Look for me to tell my child to run home. Cleaning up the bag. If you're as a mother, are you rocking? 10-year-olds when they were running home. Other siblings are busy trying not to run away, they insist on running.

I told my wife I'm happy je.

′′ Do not persuade. Just ask him to run the house faster. Go help her pack the bag. Do not worry. I used to threaten my mother like this when I was small. When my mother is stupid, I stay outside for a while and then I will go home because it's scary outside the dark.. if you persuade, don't run away, believe Tomorrow he's busy threatening to run again."

My wife went down and asked her to leave her house faster. This kid won't go out after opening the door. Look at the dark outside. He immediately opened the saji headscarf, making him hungry. It's so hard to look at it.

Want to turn into a Lion, it looks evil. Many will talk about this. You say you don't love your children. If this part is not strong, it will be stupid to be eaten by these words. But you have to believe one thing. This mother and father knows her child better than all of you. He knows so much. Know which limit he can make or not. We who watch from outside don't pretend to teach other people's children, teach our own children first to let go. Look at our children today he appreciate us how.

I was worst being criticized at that time.

He said since my wife married me, my wife's attitude has changed. Getting harder. Fierce with the kids. And many more lah. I'm lazy to take a port. The one who speaks is a woman who has never tasted anything. Work is great. So bored listening to it. But I'm cooking so much, it's normal that the sound of this person's confirmation since childhood has never lived hard, the child and the one that is like diva is usually the same. Just deaf the ear. Focus on the mission for the good of the child to come.

After 3 years, I recently had a meeting with all my children. I ask, did you notice that mom used to be different from now?

All bobbing. Getting more ferocious and crazy people say.

I'm so happy to hear. Let go of that I said.

′′ Try all of you to look back at this day. What's the difference? Neno 8 years old can be brushed by school clothes. Already able to wipe Ayra out. Luth 10 years can wash everyone's dishes. Hoze is the most improvement. From my own world today, you are the most helping to work in your house. 13 years old, washing clothes, hanging clothes, sleeping ayraa, bathing ayraa. And many more. Anish, you are the eldest brother. Thank God. No more pushy. See you already understand the reality of being a brother. Every morning sitting in the kitchen helping mom cook.. that's okay. Proud for a while Dedi. Dedi is nothing, you ask Dedi's siblings if they are rude to his mother, what happens to them. Must eat Dedi's feet. You become a son, you have to be a protector to your mother. Don't make it a slave mother."

All sighs. I'm connecting again.

′′ Do you know why this Seremban house Dedi doesn't install air conditioner near Indeed Dedi doesn't let mom install air conditioner. Let me sleep hot. Learning how to use a fan. Dedi used to grow up but never sleeps in air conditioner, thank God I grew up healthy. Dedi wants anything can't just get like that. So men have to learn how to feel hard. So that tomorrow, you will learn to be grateful. I will remember your parents when they are happy. You'll be close to siblings, tomorrow this is what you'll laugh back when you tell the story. Trust me. All of these are the sweetest memories. Mother and father don't know when will die. Maybe tomorrow we die, at least Anish can take care of the younger siblings."

Everyone was laughing at that time. My eldest child will interrupt in a while.

′′ Dedi, but honestly Anish likes the current mother from mother before. Even though it's fierce, but it's true when I remember it again. All of us are good at all. I just noticed that someone else is 8 years old but doesn't even know how to take care of the baby who is a year old and shower and defecate. Luth has changed a lot. No more crying. Hardworking. Hoze has changed a lot of crazy. Playing with the phone. There's only one problem, when you have a relative, you can come, don't sit in the Just sit down once. Anyway, I swear, Anish loves the mother who was now from the old times. Even though the current mother is crazy saiko! Haha. Mom, you are Queen Of My Heart! Mother is crazy, before Anish didn't understand a lot. When Anish sees mom struggle, Anish becomes a pity. Just saw all the sacrifices of the mother for all of us."

Others bobbing heads agree and laugh with what brother anish he said.

All impressed when I remember back. Until neno's turn, she keeps crying. She really apologizes near her mom.

The most powerful, they are siblings when their aunt wants to ask them to come out. Each one has completed the job of who managed his / her sister's clothes this year, who will beat his / her younger sibling's pampers, who will manage his / her sister's pampers. All of them think for themselves. Talk to each other and manage the equipment of his little brother who is a year old. No need to have a mother with her dedi.

Power, isn't it? Two Aspergers, an ordinary person. The eldest has entered MRSM. It means that the number two child of ADD is taking over.

Even when I'm going back to hometown, my wife just gave me an order. They all clean up their own bags. My wife doesn't even mix a single dust. My wife looks like a big boss today. All homeworks are managed by the child. My wife's duty is to cook. Wash clothes, dry clothes, wash dishes, wash toilets, throw away garbage, shower ayra for a year, all the kids who manage it.

If I don't move, I won't let my wife shout out to other children. But mad at the eldest child. Let the eldest child be stressed. Whatever happened to the younger siblings, I told her mother to kill her eldest child. So when the younger siblings aren't working, fighting, the eldest brother already knows that he needs to be tiaw with his mother later. Didn't say much, he just settled his younger siblings. That's it brother!

Thank God. The story is only one. Our children, we know each other. There's a part of being fierce, there's a part that needs to be There's a part that can laugh. This mother has one veto power, but many are afraid to use it because she is not in other s' language and is so afraid that her child will hate It doesn't mean anything! It's boring to entertain the sentiment of pity that is extreme. You used to be your mother who hit your face, do you hate your mother to big? Nothing. We're fierce because we just want to educate. Not fierce all the time. More than firm. When you see your child hardworking, listen to it, there's a day that will give you a surprise Chocolate or what? Taking a walk to the park. Time with family has to be there.

If you're too spoiled, you can make your child become responsible and the person who will defend your family, I think that the Malay soldiers won't even be training hard as hard as possible. It's better for them to just pray for all the new soldiers. What do you want, everything is given. Wake up late, swipe your hair and then kiss your forehead. Even eating time is delicious. Sleeping at night comfortably, installing air conditioner. Put on the wifi.

What was it?

Before you want to say this person, ask ourselves first. Our 7-year-old child eats, is he good at washing his own dishes? Do you know how to follow your time schedule? Can you brush your own school clothes?

If you're not good at anything, don't make me feel bad about the way other father's mother educate someone's child.

The hardest episode in educating children at this age. Believe me, this will all be a longing for the kids when they leave the house later. And this also makes them siblings get closer.

Patience, victory day is coming! Early sacrifice is the most important. Fight all the wrong feelings that always play in the soul. Only one thing you have to remember, as long as you don't fight with religion. Mom is never wrong! Angry, fierce lah. Do not worry. Continue to educate our ways. Don't forget the power of Veto!

Eh forgot, waimah is a special child. What the doctor said put number two. Accompanying kids like normal kids before but there's a limit. Don't teach him to be a special child since you were young. We know our children again, right? Because I always believe, crazy people when we clap their hands twice when they want to take our food, the third time they will understand and won't take it anymore. That's the crazy person. So, Don't let the child know he's special. Don't disturb her brain. Just entertaining the same thing.

Everyone is like that. If he feels like there are advantages, there is someone who defends more, he will start to get a chance. Can't believe it? You try to pamper your child crazy. Let go of the try in front of you, someone tease him less, you see how he has torn to tears later he will get your attention.

Anyway..

Only one thing I'm still failing. Failed to change their name call among siblings. No call Along, Angah, Bangde. I feel strongly, calling this name also has a certain advantage to put the difference between the younger brother and brother. There is a family aura.

Don't forget, Father's role in psychology is important to be crazy. Because with this mother, no matter how fierce it is, the child is brave to fight. Dad must be good at playing roles. No need to touch, you need to know when you want to have a high voice. When you want to call your child, sit down and talk about others.

Become a child idol.

Trust me, step child and biological child two things that are impossible. Because the power of VETO only exists in biological children. This step child has a risk that you need to face. What happened to them, people will say that you don't love them because it's not your biological child. Painful and sad that sentence is for me. Allah knows how I love them.

I wrote it,
Mr Amir Lake

P / s: In the past my wife was criticized by the Aspie group when my wife said she educated her aspie's child in the way she was a little firm. All sorts of people are teasing, he said that this aspie child will take revenge and kill him. Have to be teased every day. Poor. My wife doesn't agree with my actions early because she holds the doctor's order. Today, I'm asking my child aspie. Tomorrow if mom gets disturbed by someone else in front of you what will you do? What did he answer? I'll hit him enough! And I asked my wife, how about the person who teased her child? He said his child is under control but sometimes he's raging badly until he's about to breath. At the same time today my child aspie is good at cooking, can do all homework and love his siblings so much.

Mr. Amir Lake creditTranslated

My sister, Michelle-Ann Iking's 3% chance of conceiving naturally was a success! Here's her story:

(My apologies as I've been overwhelmed with personal matters. I've only managed to get to my desk. So finally got around posting this).

This is the story behind my sister's pregnancy struggle and how she shared her journey over her Facebook page.

Because some may have not caught her LIVE session chat with me (https://www.facebook.com/daphneiking/videos/687743128744960/) , or read her lengthy post (as it's a private page);
she's allowed me to copy and paste it over my wall, in case you need to know more about her thought process on how AND why she focused on the 3% success probability. Read on.

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Posted 10th May 2020.
FB Credit: Michelle-Ann Iking

A week ago today I celebrated becoming a mother to our second, long awaited child.

Please forgive this mother's LONG (self-indulgent) post, journalling what this significant milestone has meant for her personally, for her own fallible memory's sake as well as maybe to share one day with her son.

If all you were wondering was whether I had delivered and if mum and bub are OK, please be assured the whole KkLM family are thriving tremendously, and continue scrolling right along your Newsfeed 😁.

OUR 3% MIRACLE

All babies are miracles... and none more so than our precious Kiaen Aaryan (pronounced KEY-n AR-yen), whose name derives from Sanskrit origins meaning:

Grace of God
Spiritual
Kind
Benevolent

...words espousing the gratitude Kishore and I feel for Kiaen's arrival as our "3% miracle".

He was conceived, naturally, after 3 years of Kishore and I hoping, praying and 'endeavoring'... and only couples for whom the objective switches from pure recreation to (elusive) procreation will understand how this is less fun than it sounds ...

3 years during which time we had consensus from 3 different doctors that we, particularly I (with my advancing age etc etc) had only a 3% chance of natural conception and that our best hope for a sibling for our firstborn, Lara Anoushka, was via IVF.

Lara herself was an 'intervention baby', being one of the 20% of babies successfully conceived through the less intrusive IUI process, after a year and a half of trying naturally and already being told then my age was a debilitating factor.

We had tried another round of IUI for her sibling in 2017 when Lara was a year old. And that time we fell into the ranks of the 80% of would-be parents for whom it would be an exercise in futility... who would go home, comfort each other as best they could, while individually masking their own personal disappointment... hoping for the best, 'the next time around'...

So the improbability ratio of 97% against natural conception of our second baby, as concurred by the combined opinion of 3 medical professionals, was a very real, very daunting figure for us to have to mentally deal with.

Deep, DEEP, down in my heart however, though I had many a day of doubt... I kept a core kernel of faith that somehow, I would again experience the privilege of pregnancy, and again, have a chance at childbirth.

And so, the optimist in me would tell myself, "Well, there have to be people who fall in the 3% bucket... why shouldn't WE be part of the 3%?"

Those who know me well, understand my belief in the Law of Attraction, the philosophy of focusing your mind only on what you want to attract, not on what you don't want, and so even as Kishore and I prepared to go into significant personal debt to attempt IVF in the 2nd half of 2019, I marshalled a last ditch effort to hone in on that 3% chance of natural conception... through research coming across fertility supplements that I ordered from the US and sent to a friend in Singapore to redirect to me because the supplier would not deliver to Malaysia.

I made us as a couple take the supplements in the 3 month 'priming period' in the lead up to the IVF procedure - preconditioning our bodies for optimum results, if you will.

At the same time, I had invested in a sophisticated fertility monitor, with probes and digital sensors for daily tracking of saliva and other unmentionable fluid samples, designed to pinpoint with chemical accuracy my state of fertility on any given day.

(UPDATE: For those interested - I obtained the supplements and Ovacue Fertility Monitor from https://www.fairhavenhealth.com/. Though I had my supplies delivered to a friend in Singapore, and redirected to me here since the US site does not deliver to Malaysia, there are local distributors for these products, you will just have to research the trustworthiness of the vendors yourself...)

I had set an intention - in the 3 months of pre-IVF priming, I would consume what seemed like a pharmacy's worth of supplements, and track fertility religiously... in hopes that somehow, within the 3 month priming period, we would conceive naturally and potentially save ourselves a down payment on a new property... and this was just a projection on financial costs of IVF, not even considering the physical, emotional and mental toll it involves, with no guarantee of a baby at the end of it all...

It was a continuation of an intention embedded even with my first pregnancy, where all the big ticket baby items were consciously purchased for use by a future sibling, in gender neutral colours, in hopes that sibling would be a brother "for a balanced pair", though of course any healthy child would be a welcome blessing.

It was a very conscious determination to always skew my thoughts in service of what the end objective was. For example, when 3+year old Lara would innocently express impatience at not yet having a sibling, at one point suggesting that since we were "taking too long to give her a baby brother/sister", perhaps we should just "go buy a baby from a shop", instead of getting defensive or berating the baby that she herself was, we enlisted Lara's help to pray for her sibling... so in any place of worship, or sacred ground of any kind that we passed thereon, Lara would stop, close her eyes, bow her small head and place her tiny hands together in prayer, reciting earnestly, "Please God, please give me a baby brother or baby sister."

After months and months of watching Lara do this, in the constancy of her childlike chant, Kishore started feeling the pressure of possibly disappointing Lara if her prayer was not answered. Whereas for me, Lara's recitation of her simple wish became like a strengthening mantra, our collective intention imbued with greater power with each repetition, and the goal of a sibling kept very much in the forefront of our minds (hence our calling Lara our 'project manager' in this endeavour).

And somehow in the 2nd month of that 3 month period, a positive + sign appeared on one of the home pregnancy tests I had grown accustomed to taking - my version of the lottery tickets others keep buying in hopes of hitting the jackpot, with all the cyclical anticipation and more often than not, disappointment, that entails...

This time however I was not disappointed.

With God's Grace, (hence 'Kiaen', a variation of 'Kiaan' which means 'Grace of God'), my focus on our joining the ranks of the 3% had materialised.

It seems poetic then, that Kiaen chose to make his appearance on the 3rd May, ironically the same date that his paternal great-grandfather departed this world for the next... such that in the combined words of Kishore and his father Kai Vello Suppiah,

"The 1st generation Suppiah left on 3rd May and the 4th generation Suppiah arrived on 3rd May after 41yrs...
One leaves, another comes, the legacy lives on..."

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KIAEN AARYAN SUPPIAH'S BIRTH STORY

On Sunday 3rd May, I was 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

The baby was, in my mind, very UN-fashionably late past his due date of 29th April, so as much as I had willed and 'manifested' the privilege of pregnancy, to say I was keen to be done with it all was an understatement.

In the weeks leading to up to my full term, I had experienced increasingly intense Braxton-Hicks 'practice contractions' - annoying for me for the discomfort involved, stressful for Kishore who was on tenterhooks with the false alarms, on constant alert for when we would actually need to leave home for the hospital.

Having become a Hypnobirthing student and advocate from my first pregnancy with Lara, and thus being equipped with
(1) a lack of fear about childbirth in general and
(2) a basic understanding of how all the sensations I would experience fit into the big picture of my body bringing our baby closer to us,
I was less stressed - content to wait for the baby to be "fully cooked" and come out whenever he was ready... though I wouldn't have minded at all if the cooking time ended sooner, rather than later.

With Lara, I had been somewhat 'forced' into an induced labour, even though she was not yet due, and that had resulted in a 5 DAY LABOUR, a Birth Story for another post, so I was not inclined to chemically induce labour, even though I was assured that for second time mothers, it would be 'much faster and easier'...

That morning, I had a hunch *maybe* that day was the day, because in contrast to previous weeks' sensations of tightening, pressure and even spasms that were concentrated in the front of my abdomen and occasionally shot through my sides and legs, I felt period - like cramping in my lower back which I had not felt before throughout the pregnancy.

It was about 8am in the morning then, and my 'surges' were still relatively mild ('surges' being Hypnobirthing - speak for 'contractions', designed to frame them with the more positive connotations needed to counteract common language in which childbirth is presented as something that is unequivocally painful and traumatic, instead of the miraculous, powerful and natural phenomenon it actually is).

I recall (masochistically?) entertaining the thought of opting NOT to have an epidural JUST TO SEE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE...

I figured this would be the last time I would be pregnant and so it would be my 'last chance' to experience 'drug free labour' which, apart from the health benefits for baby and mother, might be *interesting* in a way that people who are curious about what getting a tattoo and skydiving and bungee jumping are like, might find these *interesting*...even knowing there will be pain and risk involved...

Since I have tried tattoos and skydiving (unfortunately not being able to squeeze in bungee-jumping while my life was purely my own to risk at no dependents' possible detriment) a similar curiousity about a no-epidural labour was on my mind...

In the absence of other signs of the onset of labour (like 'bloody show' or my waters breaking), I wanted to wait until the surges were coming every few minutes before we actually left the house for the hospital, not wanting to be one of those couples who rushed in too early and had interminable waits for the next stage in unfamiliar, clinical surroundings and/or were made to go home in an anti-climatic manner.

I was even calm enough through my surges to have the presence of mind to wash and blowdry my hair, knowing if I did deliver soon I would not be allowed this luxury for a while.

Around 9am I asked Kishore to prep for Lara and himself to be dressed and breakfasted so we could head to hospital soon, while I sent messages to family members on both sides informing them 'today might be the day.'

My mother, who had briefly served as a midwife before going back into general nursing and then becoming a nursing tutor, prophetically stated that if what I was experiencing was true labour, "the baby would be out by noon".

The pace in which my surges grew closer together was surprisingly quicker than I expected; and while I asked Lara to "Hurry up with breakfast" with only a tad more urgency than we normally tell her to do, little Missy being prone to dilly-dallying at meals, I probably freaked Kishore out when about 930am onwards, I had to instinctively get on my hands and knees a couple of times, eyes closed, trying to practice the Hypnobirthing breathing techniques I had revised to help along the process of my body birthing our child into the world.

I recall him saying a bit frantically as I knelt at our front door, doubled over as he waited for Lara to complete something or other, "Lara hurry up! Can't you see Mama is in so much pain and you are taking your own sweet time??!!"

SIDETRACK: Just the night before, Lara and I had watched a TV show in which a woman gave birth with the usual histrionics accompanying pop culture depictions of labour.

Lara watched the scene, transfixed.

I told her, simply and matter-of-factly, "That's what Mama has to do to get baby brother out Lara, and that's what I had to do for you also."

In most of interactions with my daughter, I have sought to equip her to face life's situations with calmness, truthful common sense, and ideally a minimum of drama.

Those who know the dramatic diva that Lara can be will know that this is a work-in-progress, but her response to me that night showed me some of my 'teachings' were sinking in:

She looked at me unfazed, "But Mama," she said. "You won't cry and scream like that lady, right? You will be BRAVE and stay calm, right?"
#nopressure.

So as we prepped to leave for the hospital I did indeed attempt to be that role model of calm for her, asking her only for her help in keeping very quiet,
"Because Mama needs to focus on bringing baby brother out and she needs quiet to concentrate...".

As we left the house at 10.11am, I texted Kishore's sister Geetha to please prep to pick up Lara from the hospital, and was grateful Kishore had the foresight to ask our gynae to prepare a letter for Geetha to show any police roadblocks between my in-laws' home in Subang Jaya and the hospital in Bangsar, this all happening under the Movement Control Order (MCO).

To Lara's credit, in the journey over to the hospital, she - probably sensing the gravity of the situation, sat very quietly in her seat at the back, and the silence was punctuated only by my occasional deep intakes of breath and some variation of my Ohmmm-like moans when the sensations were at their height.

By the time we got to Pantai Hospital at around 10.30am, my surges were strong enough I requested a wheelchair to assist me in getting to the labour ward, as I did not trust my own legs to support me... and Kishore would have to wait until Geetha had arrived to take Lara back to my in-laws' house before he himself could go up.

I slumped in the wheelchair and was wheeled up to the labour room with my eyes closed the whole time, trying to handle my surges.

I didn't even look up to see the attendant who pushed me... but did make the effort to thank him sincerely when he handed me over, with what seemed like a palpable sense of relief on his part, to the labour ward nurses.

The nurse attending me at Pantai was calm, steady and efficient. I answered some questions and changed into my labour gown while waiting for Kishore to come up, all the while managing the increasingly intense surges with my rusty Hypnobirthing breathing techniques.

By the time Kishore joined me at around 11am (I know these timings based on the timestamps of the 'WhatsApp live feed' of messages Kishore sent to his family), I was asking the nurse on duty, "How soon can I get an epidural??" thinking what crazy woman thought she could do this without drugs???!!!

The nurse checked my cervix dilation, I saw her bloodied glove indicating my mucous plug had dislodged, and she told me, "Well you are already at 7cm (which, for the uninitiated, is 70% of the way to the 10cm dilation needed for birthing), you are really doing well, if you made it this far without any drugs, if can you try and manage without it... I suspect within 2 hours or less you will deliver your baby and since it will take about that time for the anaesthesiologist to be called, epidural to be administered and kick in... it might all be for nothing... but of course the decision is completely up to you... "

So there I was, super torn, should I risk the sensations becoming worse... or risk the epidural becoming a waste?? And of course I was trying to decide this as my labour surges were coming at me stronger and stronger...

I was in such a dilemma...because as a 'recovering approval junkie' there was also a silly element of approval-seeking involved, ("The nurse thinks I can do this without drugs... maybe I CAN do this without drugs... Yay me!") mixed with that element of curiosity I mentioned earlier ("What if I actually CAN do this without drugs... plenty of other women have done it all over the world since time immemorial.. no big deal, how bad can it be...??") so then I thought I would use the financial aspect to be the 'tiebreaker' in my decision making...

I asked the nurse how much an epidural would cost and when she replied "Around MYR1.5k", I still remember Kishore's incredulous face as I asked the question, i.e."Seriously babe, you are gonna think about money right now? If you need the epidural TAKE IT, don't worry about the money!!!"... and while we are not rich by any stretch of the imagination, thankfully RM1.5k is not a quantum that made me swing towards a decision to "better save the money"...

So in the end, I guess my curiosity won out, and I turned down the epidural "just to see what it would be like and if I had it in me" (in addition of course to avoiding the side effects of any drugs introduced into my and the baby's body).

My labour occuring in the time of coronavirus, it was protocol for me to have a COVID19 test done, so the medical staff could apply the necessary precautions. I had heard from a friend Sharon Ruba that the test procedure was uncomfortable, so when the nurse came with the test kit as I was starting another surge, I asked, "Please can I just finish this surge before I do the test?" as I really didn't think I could multitask tackling multiple uncomfortable sensations in one go.

The COVID19 test involved what felt like a looong, skinny cotton bud being inserted into one nostril... I definitely felt more than a tickle as it went in and up, being told to take deep breaths by the nurse. Then she asked me to "Try to swallow" and I felt it go into my nasal cavities where I didn't think anything could go any further, but was proven wrong when she asked me to swallow again and the swab was probed even deeper. Then she warned me there would be some slight discomfort as she prepared to collect a sample... but at that point all I could think about was:

(i) I really don't have much of a choice
(ii) please let this be over before my next surge kicks in
(iii) if all the people breaking the MCO rules knew what it feels like to do this test maybe they won't put themselves at risk of the need to perform one...

In full disclosure as I was transferred into the actual delivery room at some point after 11am, another nurse offered me 'laughing gas' to ostensibly take some of the edge off... I took the self-operated breathing nozzle passed to me but don't recall it making any difference to my sensations..so didn't use it much as it seemed pretty pointless.

I recall some measure of relief when I heard my gynae Dr. Paul entering the room, greeting Kishore and me, and telling us it was going well and it wouldn't be long now and he would see us again shortly.

From my previous labour with Lara I knew the midwives pretty much take you 90% of the way through the labour and when the Dr is called in you are really at the home stretch, so was very relieved to hear his voice though knowing he would leave and come back later meant it wasn't quite over yet.

I do remember realising when I had crossed the Thinning and Opening Phase of labour to the Birthing Phase, by the change in sensations... it is still amazing to me that as the Hypnobirthing book mentioned, having this knowledge I was instinctively able to switch breathing techniques for the next stage of labour .

Was my opting against epidural the right choice for me?

Overall? Yes.

Don't get me wrong.

I *almost* regretted the decision several times during active labour... especially when I felt my body being taken over by an overwhelming compulsion to push that did not seem conscious and was accompanied by involuntary gutteral moans where I literally just thought to myself, "I surrender, God do with me what you will..." (super dramatic I know but VERY real at the time...).

I think I experienced 3-4 such natural explusive reflexes (?), rhythmically pushing the baby down the birth path, one of which was accompanied by what felt like a swoosh of water coming out of a hose with a diameter the size of a golf ball... this was when I realised my water had finally broken...

The nurses kept instructing me to do different things, to keep breathing, to move to my side, then to move to the middle, to raise my feet... and when I didn't comply, Kishore (who was with me throughout both my labours) tried to help them by repeating the instructions prefaced with "Sayang..." but I basically ignored all the intructions because I felt I had no capacity to direct any part of my body to do anything and someone else would have to physically manoeuvre that body part themselves.

When I heard Dr. Paul's voice again and the flurry of commotion surrounding his presence, I knew the time was close... and when I heard the nurse say to Kishore, "Sir, these are your gloves, for when you cut the baby's cord", it was music to my ears...

I'm very, VERY grateful Kiaen slid out after maybe the 4th of those involuntary pushes... the wave of RELIEF when he came out so quickly... it still boggles my mind that my mother was essentially right and as his birth time was 12.02pm, it was *only* about 1.5 hours between our arrival at the hospital and his arrival into the world.

Kiaen was placed on my chest for skin to skin bonding and remained there for a considerable time.

For our short stay in the hospital he would be with us in my maternity ward number C327... another trivially serendipitous sign for me because he was born on the 3rd (May) and our wedding anniversary is 27th (July).

I was discharged the following day 4th May at about 5.30pm, after I got an all clear on COVID19 and a paediatric surgeon did a small procedure on Kiaen to address a tongue-tie that would affect his breastfeeding latch... making the entire duration of our stay about 31 hours.

I have taken the time and effort to record all this down so that whenever life's challenges threaten to get me down I can remind myself, "Ignore the 97% failure probability, focus on the 3% success probability".

Also that the human condition is miraculous and it is such a privilege to experience it.

To our son Kiaen Aaryan, thank you for coming into our lives and choosing us as your parents.

Even though Papa and I are both zombies trying to settle into a night time feeding routine with you, I look forward to spending not only all future Mother's Days, but every day, with you and your Akka...

And last but not least, to my husband Kishore...without whom none of this would be possible - we did it sayang, I love you ❤️

Photo credit: Stayhome session with Samantha Yong Photography (http://samanthayong.com/)

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Lyrics :

[Verse 1]
Hope I only leave good vibes on your living room floor
It hurts so bad that I didn't when you asked for more
Your dad probably loves me more than he ever did now
'Cause I finally got out
Yeah, we finally knocked down

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause sometimes it's better that way
Gotta let it go so your heart don't break
'Cause I love you
Yeah, baby, I love you
Just this one time, hear what I'm tryna say
Know you might not feel quite the same way
But I love you
I tell you, I love you

[Chorus]
Why? Why wait to fight?
Give it a try
Or I'll say goodbye while it's right
Can we save tears in your eyes?
I'm making you cry
Why wait to hate, can we save love?

[Verse 2]
I fell in, I'm falling, I'm for you
I can't let you fall through the floor too
It's a gamble to take any more of you
(It's a gamble to take-take more you)
Still in my mind sometimes, I must admit it
Like it's a crime on trial, I got acquitted
Me and you wasn't meant, we wasn't fitted
Like it's a glove, I hated to admit it

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause obviously, we go back
So why would we ruin that?
In too deep, we're rearranged
Now you wanna ask for names
We can't let this fruit go bad
Sayin' things we can't take back
In too deep, we're rearranged
Say you feel the same

[Chorus]
Why? Why wait to fight?
Give it a try
Or I'll say goodbye while it's right
Can we save tears in your eyes?
I'm watching you cry
Why wait to hate, can we save love?

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"Lauv, LANY - Mean It" Lyrics:

Small talk, no conversation
That look makes me impatient
I can't tell what you're thinkin'
Please tell me what you're thinkin'
Last night we were more than fine
Just tell me if you changed your mind
If you changed your mind (mind)
'Cause I'm all, I'm all in
I'm callin', no answer
But you text me when you feel like
When it feels right to you
But I'm all, I'm all in
I'm fallin' faster
But if you're looking at me with a
Heart of doubt
Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Don't run me round and round
Don't build me up just to let me
Down, just to let me
Down, down, down (eh)
Don't mess with my head
Don't tell me you're falling
With your feet still on the ledge
I'm all out of breath, baby
Don't run me round and round
Don't kiss me, no, don't kiss me
Right now, on your lips just leave it
If you don't mean it
Ah, yeah
You know you got me in the palm of your hand
But I love those hands
Ah, yeah
But you only let me hold you when he can't
Yeah, I don't understand
'Cause I'm all, I'm all in
I'm callin', no answer
But you text me when you feel like
When it feels right to you
But I'm all, I'm all in
I'm fallin' faster
But if you're looking at me with a
Heart of doubt
Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Don't run me round and round
Don't build me up just to let me
Down, just to let me
Down, down, down (eh)
Don't mess with my head
Don't tell me you're falling
With your feet still on the ledge
I'm all out of breath, baby
Don't run me round and round
Don't kiss me, no, don't kiss me
Right now, on your lips just leave it
If you don't mean it
"Hurry home, let's never leave the house"
(But you don't mean it)
"Let's stay in bed while all our friends go out"
(But you don't mean it)
Why you let those words come out your mouth?
(If you don't mean it)
You've been staring at me with a heart of doubt
(Ah-ah)
Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Don't run me round and round
Don't build me up just to let me
Down, just to let me
Down, down, down (eh)
Don't mess with my head
Don't tell me you're falling
With your feet still on the ledge
I'm all out of breath, baby
Don't run me round and round
Don't kiss me, no, don't kiss me
Right now, on your lips just leave it
If you don't mean it

Director Kazuhiko Hiramaki
Dancer Hilty & Bosch
Music Usher - Moving Mountains (Official MV)
https://youtu.be/nQr-HmfXZ-Q

Hilty & Bosch
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(YOU) https://www.instagram.com/you.hiltyandbosch/
(ZIN) https://www.instagram.com/zin_hiltyandbosch/

＝Chore&ction list=
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0pkBLc66mA&list=PLpxXiUP5eO9MToZMxjOxzyyVAFgD95pkj


Lyrics:
It's like whatever I do,
Ooh
Just can't get through to you
Ooh, ooh
I'm never gonna tell anything wrong
Ooh, ooh,
Listen
Oh

Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her
Used to jump up in the Maybach and roll out
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can't be found
I lost my way, she said she'd stay
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before a great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns gray, and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains... (moving mountains)
It's like moving mountains... (moving mountains)

Why just leave me?
Just leave me be
Just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be, ooh, ooh
Be, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoaaa, whoa